Saturday, February 21, 2009

Being lost

Being lost and afraid is situation that I would not wish to anyone, especially if you are a kid. My story happened when I got lost in a market while I was with my mother. One day when I was four years old I went with my mother to a market but it was not a regular market it was “the market”. I remember that day; I was staring at the food stands especially at the desserts; since I was a little kid I liked to eat. At that moment a big crowd came to me and I lost contact with my mother, but I realized that after ten minutes because I was still concentrated on the desserts of the shelves. I was quiet and relax at the beginning, but I was telling to myself “Do not worry Tatjana mommy is coming for you”. My mother always told me “If you get lost do not worry I will find you”.
I waited for her for almost thirty minutes, and after that time I started to cry. At the beginning was an almost imperceptible sobbing, but after some minutes I became louder. An owner of one of the stands asked me if I was lost, but since my mother told me to do not talk with strangers I did not answer, I just cried. One lady decided to take me to the market radio station, so she took me to the D.J. booth, but I started to cry louder than ever. At that moment I thought that the lady was trying to kidnap me. I thought that because a couple of weeks before my cousin were kidnapped by a woman who lived in my neighborhood, who had some serious mental illness, and I related that situation to that moment I was living. I do not know why she did not explain me in that moment her intentions maybe that could be more helpful. She had to carry me in her arms and finally she could take me to the D.J.’s booth. When I arrived to the booth with my “Kidnapper” I saw a man on the microphone, he was talking something related to the market and finally I could understand the intentions of the lady. I ran desperate to the microphone and I began to call my mom. The D.J. took the microphone and began to talk through the P.A., he gave my description and he asked me for my mother’s name. After a couple of minutes my mother came to my rescue and my odyssey finished. I never went back to the market, until I turned 12. It was almost funny to go back to that place and remember what I lived that day.

Lie

Trust is one of the most important things in my life. My mom taught me that I have to respect other people and I have to gain their trust. I needed time to learn what was good for me and what was wrong, but now I know.
It was winter 19 years ago. I was a 9 years old girl and I went to second grade in my elementary school. My teacher was so mad because of our long bangs. He thought that because our long bangs we could not follow class, and he told every girl in class that next time we had to cut our bangs. I had long, curly, brown hair and my mom made me braid it every day. I was so afraid about, how to tell my mom that she had to cut my bangs. At that moment, I thought that it would be better for me to do it myself. I didn’t have scissors, real scissors, and I found some very small paper scissors. It was very difficult to cut my bangs with those scissors, but my teacher told me that I had to do it. I felt so bad because I lied to my mom, and after when I finished, I looked like a doll. I took a bobby pin and tried to cover up what I did. All the while, I had the feeling like my mom was looking at me. Seven days later, I felt much better. My teacher was happy, my mom didn’t notice anything and I felt more relaxed. When I thought that was the end of my problems, my aunty asked me:” What happened to your bangs? Did you cut them?” I told her:” No, why do you think that?” My mom and aunty started to look at me, and my mom told me to take my bobby pin away. I started to cry, and told her:” Please don’t be mad. I played a game with Andrea, and she cut my bangs.” She didn’t believe me and asked me to tell her the truth. When I told her that the teacher had asked me to cut my bangs, she was surprised. She asked me many times why he had asked me to do that. After a 30 minute conversation, she decided to go to school and check with my teacher. When she returned from school, she hugged me and explained to me where I made my mistake.
After this situation my mom and I learned that we need to have more belief in each other. If I had a problem, my mom will be there to help me with everything. Trust is one of the most important things.

Danube Park

I lived in Novi Sad for eight years. I went there after my high school to work and study. Novi Sad is the second largest city in Serbia and one place that I will always remember is Danube Park. I liked to spend my free time at Danube Park, most beautiful park in Novi Sad. When I wanted to relax I usually went there. That is a small park with a lot of different trees. There are fifteen different kinds of trees, and some of them are very, very old. Linden tree is one of my favorite trees, because it has so strange and nice smell. The flower is very white with yellow bulk, and when I have chance, I take small brunch and enjoy in smells. When you walk through the park somewhere in the middle you will see three very small lakes. In the spring people who take care about the park, always let go two beautiful, white swans in the lake. They are real attraction and decoration of the park, for people whom walk over there. It is very relaxing to go over there and to read a book. Children enjoy playing in the park, because that is real paradise for them. The park has small playground with very interesting toys. Children sometimes make so much noise, so it would, in normal circumstances; disturb people around, but not and in the park. When spring comes grass becomes so green and so soft it is a real pleasure lying on it. While I lie on the grass, I can see how the Sun is trying to get through thick brunches. Sunday was my day for resting and on that day that is the only place where people could find me.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Healtcare

I chose to write about healthcare because I am thinking to enroll in some program for my healthcare. It is very important to have it and I feel so unsafe without it. If you have some advice of good healthcare please inform me.Healthcare is one of the investments which should help us in our entire life. Investing in healthcare is good decision, but we always have two sides of it, what is good or what is not good for us when we want to make this big step of taking health care. In my experience I had chance to read and go through what is good healthcare. Healthcare programs in the United States are different from my country, Serbia. What I could not understand is why American people pay for insurance when on the day when they have to go to hospital they have to pay some amount, and usually it is big numbers. In my country, Serbia, insurance cover all bills and even if we have some accident insurance company will we cover that too; actually they will send you a check. I got confuse about all this companies who offer a healthcare. I really do not understand what part of your cost they will cover. On commercial all of them look so perfect they I want to call them at that moment. What is really important in choosing healthcare? The amount what we have to pay for each month is so big and on the end we do not get anything because we have to pay again to doctor. I hope that this new government we will think more about it and how to help people. Perhaps, decreasing cost of healthcare will be helpful for people in this economic crisis.

My sister

It is so difficult to be in country where you do not have your family, and probably I cannot count how many people are in the same situation like me. Sometimes, I feel so lonely when I think about my family, and I just want hug from my mom, dad or sister, just to feel warm of their hearts. I was not in Serbia almost one year and I cannot wait for the day when I will go. It will be this summer of course; do not think that I will leave them to wait some more time for me.
My sister Tamara is pregnant and I am very excited because she will deliver a baby in March and when I go I will have chance to be with her too. Yes, it is a little girl, little Sara. I am very close to my sister and I feel bad because I cannot be with her in these moments. However, we talk every day and even I can see her. We use famous program Skype where you can talk and see people without paying any amount for it. It helps me to not feel so far from my family.
I love my sister so much but we are so different. Although, it helps us to understand other people because we learn together what is good and what is not for us. Also, I am always for adventure and I think that I can do everything alone, like traveling around the world. She is more dedicated to our parents and she is not an adventurer as I am. Tamara is a more introverted, shy, and very sensitive person. I have a feeling that she will always call me just to check that I am not doing something crazy. People usually think that we are twins. We always laugh about that. We look at ourselves in the mirror to try to see what is so similar between us.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Where to go for vacation

I was talking with my husband these days about going on vacation after this semester. Actually, we got married eight months ago and we never had our honeymoon, so probably that trip will be our honeymoon. I would like to go to Disney because I always dreamt about it as a kid. Now when I am living in the United States I have chance to go and visit it. I was a little bit disappointed when I realized that we will need three hours to travel to the first beach. However, I do not doubt that will be an amazing experience that i will remember all my life.

In June, this year we will go to visit my family in Serbia. I was not there almost one year and I really miss them. Also, it will be Alan's first trip to Serbia and he is very excited about it. He does not speak Serbian and it will be one problem for him in my country because in Serbia people do not speak English, not in Kikinda, the town where I grew up. I will try to show him all beautiful parts of my country and to enjoy in every day of his trip. I am very excited because he will meet my parents for the first time. They saw each other only by camera on Skype, but it is not same when you meet somebody personally.

We are planning to go to Peru too, because Alan is from Peru. Probably, we will leave this trip for the end of the year.

I like to travel and all our plans for this year are not finished, what makes me happy. Perhaps, i will have chance to go somewhere else in the middle time.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Places I Call Home

Our home is what we consider for home, not a place where we were born, especially if we live in other town or country. I was born in Kikinda, a small town in Serbia, Eastern Europe, and I lived there for nineteen years. After my high school I moved to Novi Sad, second largest city in Serbia, to study. It was very interesting for my parents to listen my speech when I told them that I consider Novi Sad as my home. I lived in Novi Sad for eight years, and living without parents made me more independent. However, after some time I decided to make a new step and to try something different in my life. I decide to go to the other part of the world, the United States, and to live and study there. Nowadays, I was thinking a lot about what is really my home. I live now in the United Stated, and it is my home. However, I am thinking to move to Canada when I finish school, and that makes me to think more about what is and what will be my home.
Our home is what we consider for home, not a place where we were born, especially if we live in other town or country. I was born in Kikinda, a small town in Serbia, Eastern Europe, and I lived there for nineteen years. After my high school I moved to Novi Sad, second largest city in Serbia, to study. It was very interesting for my parents to listen my speech when I told them that I consider Novi Sad as my home. I lived in Novi Sad for eight years, and living without parents made me more independent. However, after some time I decided to make a new step and to try something different in my life. I decide to go to the other part of the world, the United States, and to live and study there. Nowadays, I was thinking a lot about what is really my home. I live now in the United Stated, and it is my home. However, I am thinking to move to Canada when I finish school, and that makes me to think more about what is and what will be my home.